Tate

(A Very Open Love Letter to My Son)
Dear Tate,

I was just laying in bed, thinking about you, and this blog, which was originally started as a way of dealing with my pain of finding out about how fragile x has affected our family, and I realized the only thing that was missing from this page was you.  So, my sweet, amazing son, this one's for you.

I think every parent out there says they cannot imagine their life without their children, but, T, this holds so true for you.  Your daddy and I so often say that you are our miracle.  When you're old enough to realize just how special you are and how genetics work, I hope that you will realize what a blessing from God we think you are. 

You are so smart, loving, and caring.  You need only be taught something once and it holds firm in your mind.  I find so much pleasure in watching you learn and grow.  I also find joy beyond my wildest expectations in conversations with you.  You are wise beyond your years.  I hope that never changes.

I'm sure you are realizing that our family is not the "norm", and Mommy and Daddy spend a lot of time trying to figure out the most basic things.  I hope you know that it's because we love you and your brother so much.  We only want what's best for both of you.

I see in you so many traits that I wish I had, Tate.  Your capacity for love is unparalleled.  You accept everyone who you meet without question.  You have a heart of gold.  You are kind, sincere, and thoughtful.  You are such a good person.  I hope that I can continue to nurture that innateness within you.  You were born with a beautiful soul.
 
So, my son, my wonderful son, my wish for you is to always know how much I love you and that you never feel left behind.  I think you are beyond amazing.  I'm proud to be your mother in even your weakest moments, because those are the times that will build your character. 

I will never let you fall.  I will always have a hand there to help you up.  No matter what life has in store for all of us, you are a part of me that I hold dear.  I love you.  You mean everything to me.

Love,

Mommy