(A Very Open Love Letter to My Son)
I was just laying in bed, thinking about you, and this blog, which was originally started as a way of dealing with my pain of finding out about how fragile x has affected our family, and I realized the only thing that was missing from this page was you. So, my sweet, amazing son, this one's for you.
I think every parent out there says they cannot imagine their life without their children, but, T, this holds so true for you. Your daddy and I so often say that you are our miracle. When you're old enough to realize just how special you are and how genetics work, I hope that you will realize what a blessing from God we think you are.
You are so smart, loving, and caring. You need only be taught something once and it holds firm in your mind. I find so much pleasure in watching you learn and grow. I also find joy beyond my wildest expectations in conversations with you. You are wise beyond your years. I hope that never changes.
I'm sure you are realizing that our family is not the "norm", and Mommy and Daddy spend a lot of time trying to figure out the most basic things. I hope you know that it's because we love you and your brother so much. We only want what's best for both of you.
I see in you so many traits that I wish I had, Tate. Your capacity for love is unparalleled. You accept everyone who you meet without question. You have a heart of gold. You are kind, sincere, and thoughtful. You are such a good person. I hope that I can continue to nurture that innateness within you. You were born with a beautiful soul.
So, my son, my wonderful son, my wish for you is to always know how much I love you and that you never feel left behind. I think you are beyond amazing. I'm proud to be your mother in even your weakest moments, because those are the times that will build your character.
I will never let you fall. I will always have a hand there to help you up. No matter what life has in store for all of us, you are a part of me that I hold dear. I love you. You mean everything to me.